• 3:20:00 AM, Saturday, January 12, 2008
Well, here's the update.
Life's basically been revolving around work, dance, and time spent with the family and him. Pretty much the case.
Work's rather fine. Some days more interesting than the rest I guess. Some days get pretty boring though, when there's hardly any work to do. So the 3 LMAs (Level Manager Assistants) just sit there and talk crap and stone. This is especially true in the MORNING. When the students are having their classes. Yes, I've been to class before! ONCE. And the students are pretty difficult to handle if you ask me. Oh wells, maybe I'm too soft. But I shouted at them already! Aiya,heck.
Other than that, office work's manageable. Learnt quite a few things actually, how to handle the photocopiers and laminaters and other machines. Quite a bit of typing for the teachers as well. We laminated like a million A3 sized posters 2 days back. Horrendous I swear.. But the colleagues are nice people. Some at least on the surface. Sitting in the HOD room for one, you hear the office drama. Kinda cool sometimes when we're bored and there's nothing for us to do. There are days when we are just pleading for people to give us work to do. Yet there are also days we ask for less work, cos we're all so tied up. That's working life I guess. Heh.
Dance's alright. But definitely not all that smooth as we've wanted it to go. Juniors having quite a bit of problems with the concert items and some politics stuffs, I shan't elaborate more here. I just hope that some people would be more responsible for their actions, and really do their part like we've trusted them to do so when we elected them into the new exco. And communication and discussions are definitely the most important aspects.
As for the alumni items, Nadine's one is a sexy feminst item and Andrea's her normal hiphop item. I guess I'm having some problems of my own, so I can get pretty frustrated at myself sometimes that I go all quiet during practices... Nadine's item I still can catch on fine, cos at least I've done sexy items before. But Hiphop I'm pretty new to. And I just find myself pretty much struggling to just scrape through. It's frustrating to see how fast others catch on and get into the mood and style, trying to perfect the steps, when you're still there trying to get the correct steps, be in speed, get the feel of the dance, and REMEMBER the steps.
I guess I've not been exposed to much hiphop in my years of dance. So the style I haven't caught, the steps I don't catch that fast. Understandable. But I guess I just can't help but feel that way. I don't quite like lagging behind. We started out the item 2 wks ago, and I learnt the steps the same time as everybody. That saturday I could do most of the steps, then when I came home and tried to recall, my mind was just kinda blank. then the following saturday I so wanted to go for dance to get my steps right, but obviously it wasn't meant to be cos i got kinda sick and had to see the doc. So 2 weeks went by without recapping the steps, naturally like 80% of it was blurred from my mind. Last week they didn't learn new steps. It was just blocking. So now I dunno my blocking and I dunno my steps. Can't remember man!!! GRRRRR ): And to top it off, the steps we learnt today, though I can remember, neither the style nor the speed's there.
Okay, so maybe I shouldn't be so stressed on myself. People keep telling me I'll get it in time when Andrea starts the drilling. And with Nadine's cleaning up, I'll be alright in time to come. But knowing that and the actual situation's like two different scenarios! Okay, nvm, I should stop pressurizing myself...
Times like these I really wanna stay at home...
Or at least not shopping with my mum or something.
I'll have like no mood to shop at all and she'll think I'm giving her attitude problem. )):
So I did, for today.
I came home straight after dance, bathed, ate lunch, and SLEPT.
I guess some of the sianness has been slept away. But it's still there...
There're some other things kinda bothering me too, at times.
But those I think I'd rather keep to myself.
I don't know what else to do...So I shall just wait. And wait...
I just wish you were here with me, right this moment...
♥ loved at : 3:20:00 AM
